I usually check out Instagram stories during my time in carpool when all is quiet and I am alone. However, every once in a while, I will find myself looking at them while I am cooking dinner and the kids are goofing around. Last week, while cooking dinner, I found myself doing just that. Reid was putting a sick little munchkin to bed, and Harlan was watching whatever college basketball game he could find on the television. The kid is obsessed with all things sports!

I came across an Instagram story that took my breath away, and brought tears to my eyes. I was only able to watch for a few seconds because Harlan started chatting with me, but I couldn’t get what I saw out of my brain. I saw this precious book: Our Heaven Baby. A quick google search told me that it was a children’s book about explaining miscarriage. Let me just say that Amazon Prime has never been used so quickly.

I reserved this book for a night that I knew the boys would be down early, and Reid had a business dinner. I just felt that I needed to be alone to crack it open. Let me just say . . . well, there really were no words. Just tears that started at the dedication page, and just kept on flowing. This sweet story is told from the perspective of a five year old boy. He takes you through the excitement of learning that he was going to be a big brother, to finding out that his baby brother had died in mommy’s belly, and then to describing Heaven and how fun Jesus must be! Full disclosure: I am crying while typing this. Just a precious PRECIOUS book.

If you or a loved has ever experienced a miscarriage, AND you have young children that are experiencing that along with you . . . GET THIS BOOK! Oh, how I wish that I had had this book in June of 2017. Losing a baby at five months is hard enough, but then having to help two little boys grieve the loss of their sister only amplifies the sorrow. We prayed a lot and we talked about how Sophie was in Heaven and one of our angels, but explaining death and grief to a six year old and a nine year old is heart-wrenching. Jackson pointed out pink things for almost a year saying “if Sophie was still alive, she would have loved that”. And, Harlan only requested that “my sister be alive” for his birthday and Christmas gifts that year. Y’all, just heartbreaking. Oh, how I wish that I had had this book. It is such a sweet way to show young children that they are not alone. This has happened to other people, and we will all get to be together in Heaven forever. Just because these sweet kiddos on earth lose their siblings via miscarriage, it doesn’t mean that they won’t know them and love them for eternity with Jesus. Precious, precious, precious.

I pray that I never have to pass this sweet book on to anyone, but I have a feeling that I will pull it out from time to time to just reflect. It is so beautiful. Thank you Leah Vis for your beautiful work of art that touches so many of us so deeply.

Click here to grab a copy for yourself or a loved one. Praying for all of you that need this book today. XO